I'm in the midst of a raging bout of insomnia. I can't remember if it started last week or this week. I definitely haven't slept any this week. Last night I went to bed at 11:00 & woke up at 2:00 wide awake. Around 2:30 realized I was not going back to sleep, so I read for about an hour & thankfully fell back asleep. Woke back up around 5:30 & have been up ever since. Welcome to my hell.
I've had insomnia for as long as I can remember. I remember back when I was young, like 5th/6th grade, & not sleeping. Of course back then I thought it was fun to wake up in the middle of the night & watch TV until everyone else woke up. You don't know at that age that something is wrong with you. It got really bad in college. I remember my freshman year, there was like a 2 or 3 day period where I didn't sleep at all. Luckily that's the only time that's happened. I typically fall asleep fine, but wake up after a couple of hours & can't go back to sleep.
It usually hits maybe once a year, typically in January/February when work starts getting crazy. I assume this recent bout is wedding related. I can't pinpoint what's stressing me out in regards to the wedding, but it's definitely stressing me out. When I wake up in the middle of the night, my mind is racing with wedding stuff. I used to be able to fall back asleep by concentrating on my breathing or counting to 10, etc., but none of that is working right now. It SUCKS.
In other news, John's grandfather died & he left with his dad last night to go to the funeral in Albuquerque. He'll be back on Wed night. It'll be weird being alone in the house for that long.
I have a bridal shower today at my aunt's house in Brentwood. I'm actually really excited. My Aunt Ginger, my friend Lauren & my mom's friend, Mary Faye are hosting it for me. It's my last shower & it's definitely going to be the biggest. This is probably part of the reason I didn't sleep last night. I kept thinking about what to wear, do I have time to do my nails, how early should I get there, should I eat lunch, etc....
Well, I hope everyone enjoys their Sunday -you know, when you wake up in 3 hours.