In no particular order:
1. Find a new job
2. Chill the eff out
2. Graduate
3. Make my health more of a priority
1. In the works. Will hopefully know more soon. Fingers crossed. Seriously, cross your fingers.
2. If I do remain at my current job, I have to find a way to deal with it. No more stress eating, no more insomnia, no more debilitating anxiety. I need to fit in at least 1 yoga class a week, even if it's just the yoga on the Wii Fit.
3. On track to graduate in December. The one thing that may change this is taking a non-state job & having to pay for my last 4 classes.
4. In the past few months, I've slipped into this weird place where I'm not working out & I'm purposefully over-eating. It's clearly related to how unhappy I am at work, but I don't know why I'm doing it. In all honesty, I'm probably either depressed or dealing with seasonal affective disorder. Regardless, I'm done with it. Enough.
I need to start working out again. My parents loaned us their elliptical machine during Christmas, but we hardly used it because you have to stare at the wall the whole time you're working out. Yesterday my dad told me we can keep it because he joined a gym, so we're going to buy a TV for that room. We'll definitely start using it now. I also bought the new Jillian Michaels Fitness Ultimatum 2010 for my Wii Fit. It's hard for me to get to the gym Jan-May because of Session, so being able to work-out at home will make a huge difference.
Food. Ugh.... I'm debating what to do here. Re-join Weight Watchers? Do the ABS (no alcohol, no bread, no sugar) meal plan? I have a hard time with absolutes, so the ABS diet probably wouldn't work, especially long term. Weight Watchers I can do with my eyes closed, & it works, but it's not cheap. My Daily Plate is free, but I didn't find it as effective as Weight Watchers. I'm also thinking of shaming myself into losing weight by putting my weight on my blog. God, some of you wouldn't be able to look me in the eye if you knew how much I weigh. I don't know. I need to think about it. Regardless, I'm doing something.
To end things on a positive note, here are some good things that happened in 2009:
the birth of my niece, Jessica
Linda McCartney
completing 4 graduate classes
running my 1st 5K
1st annual Baldwin Halloween party
one year wedding anniversary
trips to Savannah & NYC
Happy New Year!
2 comments:
I understand the struggle, esp. the depression and stress factor.
I have to buy XL, sometimes XXL shirts. I wear a 14/16 jean. I used to be an 8 and I used to wear skirts. Not right now.
I am learning to not get bogged down in the number on the scale and the number on my pants.
For 2010, I intend to love and appreciate my body (instead of it being my enemy) -- and not just in a wordy "I love you" way, but in a conscious consumption (esp. beer) and more exercise way -- with my primary goal of being stronger and more capable physically, and giving myself better posture.
Of course, I will accept the side effect of weight loss, if it happens. But, I'm going to try and not worry so much about that part of it.
Happy New Year. Wanna come over and hula hoop?
(sorry i'm just now catching up on some reading)... but i feel ya too. overall health (weight loss included) is my main focus in 2010. hopefully i can keep up with it.
my wii told me i gained 7 pounds. screw you, wii. but my jeans are telling me the same thing. keep up with it, i'll be going through it with ya! :-)
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